As we decorated for Christmas last week I was thrilled to put out my most FAVORITE decoration. A beautiful snow globe with a golden christmas tree surrounded by glitter and snow. The base is a gorgeous cherry wood and on the bottom there is a wind up knob that makes for a magical christmas serenade. This is no ordinary snow globe. This was my Grandma Darline's. A snow globe so beautiful, peaceful, elegant, sincere, and simple. A snow globe that was a perfect resemblance of my grandmother. I only had two things from her after she passed. My sewing machine that will become a family heirloom and THAT snow globe. She did not have much, and I cherished those two things with all of my heart.
Notice that I am using past tense in regards to the snow globe?? (every sad face imaginable insert here). Well after we put the boys to bed on Sunday night, David and I snuggled up on the couch. Just enough time to get relaxed and then we heard a "BOOM, CRASH, SWOOSH!" The sound of glass shattering was inevitable. David automatically ran into the bedroom and I heard him whisper "that was mommy's snow globe Stephen." My heart sank! I just started bawling and praying, then bawling and praying some more. David hurried to clean up EVERYTHING. From glass shards everywhere, to water, glitter, and my emotional mess! Stephen ran out to me and honestly made every sad emotion turn into comfort, love, and relief. He just held me and said "Mommy I am so sorry." Five minutes later he was still holding me saying "Mommy I am still so sorry." He wiped my tears and gave me more love than I ever thought a three year old had in them.
Normally, I am not a sentimental person...at all! You can ask all of my family. I have never really been attached to "things," especially for long periods of time. It may be because I LOVE change. However, it may also be because quality time (not gifts) is one of my love languages. The other reason is because when we pass away, all of those "things" stay here on earth. This time was different though. I MISS my grandmother so much, especially with it being the Christmas season. To be able to share that snow globe with my kids meant everything. Actually, the boys were kind of infatuated with the beautiful snow globe and I should have realized right then, but I didn't. Normally the snow globe was put up high too, but ya know...chairs get moved and kids learn to climb. I am sure Stephen tip toed and put that glorious shiny glass ball full of christmas goodness in his room somehow. It just so happens that he also sleeps on the top bunk...aka a higher drop for all things!
Just when we think things can't get any worse, they do! They do indeed!!! It is all about perspective and attitude though. We have the right to have OUR time, time to take everything in, grieve, cry, have five minutes so we don't explode, whatever it may be. Then, we have the right to recover. Recover from the feelings that overwhelmed us. From there we can choose how to continue our day. Try to look for the beauty and blessings in all things. Trust me, when we dig deep, we will find it in some form. Sometimes doing so is not easy, but having a positive outlook is a complete game changer!

















